I think alot

I think alot.

I think about everything all day long. My head never stops moving. No matter where I am, I'm thinking.

It is nice but at the same time it can be horrible. I think about things that have happened in the past couple of weeks, months... I think about things that are happening right now. I think about things that are going to happen. I go over every situation in my head. I go over every expression that someone has flashed me or every word that someone has said, and how they have said it. This makes me replay all my activities, good or bad, and the emotions that went along with them.
Yeah, I know.. this can be very draining on a person. This is a very good thing because it makes me go over things again and again and think about how I could have done them differently!
I also think about how I am going to react the next time I see someone. Thinking can be a horrible thing because it can make me relive everything..

I love life, don't get me wrong, but replaying every decision you have made time and time again can be very difficult. Another good thing about all this thinking is that.. I feel that I am prepared for anything. I get myself ready for any situation that I could get myself into, or at least I like to think I do. I also think before I say anything. I will not let anything come out of my mouth with first thinking about what I am going to say, how I am going to say it, and how it is going to affect each and every person in the room.

I was talking to a friend about this the other night and she asked how I could think this fast. I replayed that this is the way I have always been. I tend to look at all situations from a phyc point of view. Maybe I should have been a phyc major, oh well, there is always grad school. I think about how everything I say or do will affect other people. This requires a hell of a lot of thinking and a lot of work, but I guess that is why I think so much.

I laid in bed this morning for almost 2 hours just thinking. Most of my time is spent thinking about someone out there. This is a whole other story which I am going to get into in another entry.. next time maybe, with another cup of tea and another cookies around my table..